Me and my lifetime relationship with the scale

I'm 5'3" and right now I weigh about mid 130s. This seems to be my plateau weight. I've been up and down since high school. I danced my whole childhood until I moved to Utah when I was 14. Then I played sports in school and had been fairly active. But I was never really dedicated or all that good at sports, I did it mostly for social reasons not for health reasons.

When I first got married and got on the depo shot I gained 30 lbs. That was the first time in my life I started to take exercise seriously. I took metabolife responsibly and started going to the gym 4 nights a week. I got down to about 134 and then honestly I stopped really exercising after that and just sat at about 140 for the next couple years.

Then along came the bambino. During pregnancy I gained about 55 lbs. I had this mind set of "Oh I'm pregnant eat what I want don't worry yourself, I've lost the weight before I can do it again". After Michaella was born I continued the same eating habits as before and I weighed about 150-155 for the next 18 months. Then we moved to Idaho from Utah and the stress began.

I slightly changed my eating habits by not eating out for lunch. With in a year I had dropped down to 143. I contribute most of the weight loss to stress.

Then about a year ago I visited my mother and found out that she was on oxygen when she exerted herself at all. My mother is obese. I love her with all my heart and wish I could do something to help her. I have tried to set an example and I have mentioned weight loss surgery. But I can't make her do anything. I can however change myself.

So I began running and eating very healthy. I do the 5 small meals a day. More like 3 snacks and 2 meals. But all last summer running 3 miles 3x a week plus yoga on the off days really didn't shed any weight. I kept it up though because I felt good.

Then I had a personal crisis and I stopped running. Mostly because there were other things that were more important for me to do and people that it was more important to spend time with. But things started to smooth out and I found out I was going to Mexico in April. SO... here I go again!!!

I'm doing a boot camp class Mondays and Kickboxing on Thursday night. I just added a Tuesday night Kickboxing too because I really like the teacher. I have also been doing weights at home. And hopefully with this little tease of spring weather I can start running at home again.

I don't really have a goal weight. I think if I just saw 120 something I would be ecstatic! I don't think I've weighed in the 120s since Junior High. In fact in a physical to play volleyball in 9th grade I was about 135 and the Dr informed me that I weighed a bit more than most girls my age. As you can imagine that was a hit on my psyche. I do have very muscular dancers legs. I honestly wished I had chicken legs, but that's not what god gave me. So I try to keep that in mind when I compare myself to others and what I think I should weigh. I have some lingering middle body fat and of course hips and thighs. So 129 is probably not asking too much is it???

5k last summer